The test of the heart
“So please, my lord, let me stay here as a slave instead of the boy, and let the boy return with his brothers. For how can I return to my father if the boy is not with me? I couldn’t bear to see the anguish this would cause my father!” – Genesis 44:33-34
Genesis 44 is a powerful moment in Joseph’s story. Joseph tested his brothers by having his silver cup hidden in Benjamin’s sack. He expected them to abandon Benjamin just as they had left him years earlier when they sold him into slavery. But this time, Judah stepped forward with a changed heart. He offered himself in Benjamin’s place, showing sacrificial love and proving that God had changed their evil intentions through years of hardship and waiting.
There have been many times when my own heart has been tested in the middle of difficult situations. On one occasion, I was passed over for a promotion that was given to someone who seemed less qualified but was also a close friend of mine. It would have been easy to distance myself to protect my pride. I also felt justified in being hurt and could have held on to bitterness and resentment. But I knew that God had placed that friendship in my life for a purpose, and He showed me how to support that friend with grace and encouragement instead of hanging on to bitterness. That choice tested me, but it also revealed that God was growing me in love and maturity. What felt like a painful rejection became an opportunity for transformation and growth.
Everything in life is a test, not to harm us, but to reveal what is in our hearts and to deepen our dependence and trust in our heavenly Father. Sometimes the testing comes through relationships, sometimes through work, and other times through times of waiting. These tests can feel overwhelming, but they also lead us into deeper growth, stronger character, and unexpected breakthroughs. Just as Judah revealed a new heart through his willingness to sacrifice, God desires to transform the heart to look more like His.
Here are some ways you can pass the next test that comes into your life:
- Ask God to reveal areas in your life where He may be testing your heart and trust Him in those moments.
- When faced with difficult choices, consider what decision would demonstrate sacrificial love and honor God.
- Remember past tests and how God brought growth and blessing through them, use that as encouragement in current challenges.
- Pray for the courage to do what is right even when it costs you something.
- Choose grace and integrity over fear and self-protection.
It can feel overwhelming and even impossible at the moment, but when you prepare ahead of time to recognize tests and ask the Holy Spirit for help, He will empower you to grow through every trial you face. You can begin today by identifying one current situation that feels like a test in your life. Write it down and pray, “Lord, help me respond in a way that honors You.” Then look for one small step you can take this week that demonstrates trust in God and love toward those involved.
Today I want to encourage you to see your test not as a punishment but as an opportunity for God to reveal His work in your heart. Just like Judah, you may discover that the very situation you thought would break you is the one that shows how much God has grown you. Tests are not the end, they are doorways to new beginnings and deeper faith. God is with you, and He is shaping something beautiful in your heart through the challenges you face. Keep in mind that if you don’t pass the first time, know that God, in His mercy, will allow the test to come again so you can keep growing and strengthening you to step into the next level of faith He has for you.
Today’s scripture reading: Genesis 44
1 When his brothers were ready to leave, Joseph gave these instructions to his palace manager: “Fill each of their sacks with as much grain as they can carry, and put each man’s money back into his sack.
2 Then put my personal silver cup at the top of the youngest brother’s sack, along with the money for his grain.” So the manager did as Joseph instructed him.
3 The brothers were up at dawn and were sent on their journey with their loaded donkeys.
4 But when they had gone only a short distance and were barely out of the city, Joseph said to his palace manager, “Chase after them and stop them. When you catch up with them, ask them, ‘Why have you repaid my kindness with such evil?
5 Why have you stolen my master’s silver cup, which he uses to predict the future? What a wicked thing you have done!’”
6 When the palace manager caught up with the men, he spoke to them as he had been instructed.
7 “What are you talking about?” the brothers responded. “We are your servants and would never do such a thing!
8 Didn’t we return the money we found in our sacks? We brought it back all the way from the land of Canaan. Why would we steal silver or gold from your master’s house?
9 If you find his cup with any one of us, let that man die. And all the rest of us, my lord, will be your slaves.”
10 “That’s fair,” the man replied. “But only the one who stole the cup will be my slave. The rest of you may go free.”
11 They all quickly took their sacks from the backs of their donkeys and opened them.
12 The palace manager searched the brothers’ sacks, from the oldest to the youngest. And the cup was found in Benjamin’s sack!
13 When the brothers saw this, they tore their clothing in despair. Then they loaded their donkeys again and returned to the city.
14 Joseph was still in his palace when Judah and his brothers arrived, and they fell to the ground before him.
15 “What have you done?” Joseph demanded. “Don’t you know that a man like me can predict the future?”
16 Judah answered, “Oh, my lord, what can we say to you? How can we explain this? How can we prove our innocence? God is punishing us for our sins. My lord, we have all returned to be your slaves—all of us, not just our brother who had your cup in his sack.”
17 “No,” Joseph said. “I would never do such a thing! Only the man who stole the cup will be my slave. The rest of you may go back to your father in peace.”
18 Then Judah stepped forward and said, “Please, my lord, let your servant say just one word to you. Please, do not be angry with me, even though you are as powerful as Pharaoh himself.
19 “My lord, previously you asked us, your servants, ‘Do you have a father or a brother?’
20 And we responded, ‘Yes, my lord, we have a father who is an old man, and his youngest son is a child of his old age. His full brother is dead, and he alone is left of his mother’s children, and his father loves him very much.’
21 “And you said to us, ‘Bring him here so I can see him with my own eyes.’
22 But we said to you, ‘My lord, the boy cannot leave his father, for his father would die.’
23 But you told us, ‘Unless your youngest brother comes with you, you will never see my face again.’
24 “So we returned to your servant, our father, and told him what you had said.
25 Later, when he said, ‘Go back again and buy us more food,’
26 we replied, ‘We can’t go unless you let our youngest brother go with us. We’ll never get to see the man’s face unless our youngest brother is with us.’
27 “Then my father said to us, ‘As you know, my wife had two sons,
28 and one of them went away and never returned. Doubtless he was torn to pieces by some wild animal. I have never seen him since.
29 Now if you take his brother away from me, and any harm comes to him, you will send this grieving, white-haired man to his grave.’
30 “And now, my lord, I cannot go back to my father without the boy. Our father’s life is bound up in the boy’s life.
31 If he sees that the boy is not with us, our father will die. We, your servants, will indeed be responsible for sending that grieving, white-haired man to his grave.
32 My lord, I guaranteed to my father that I would take care of the boy. I told him, ‘If I don’t bring him back to you, I will bear the blame forever.’
33 “So please, my lord, let me stay here as a slave instead of the boy, and let the boy return with his brothers.
34 For how can I return to my father if the boy is not with me? I couldn’t bear to see the anguish this would cause my father!”
Journal:
- What situation in your life right now feels like a test?
- How can you respond with faith, grace, or sacrificial love instead of fear or self-protection?